Okay the issue is,

I'm 24 years old.
I want my degree, experience in working industry, to be a flight stewardess, and to get my driving licenses.

Personally, I'm just fighting with my wants and needs.

Want,
To be a cabin crew in singapore airlines, to be able to travel around the world and earn big bucks.
Support family and living life luxuriously.
But that doesnt mean I will get the job. No assurance yet

Downstream,
This will not bring me to a stable future.
Once I'm married, I need to leave the crew and get a job with my diploma and working experience.

Need,
A degree,In construction management.
With the advantage of my current job in Housing Development Board.
I will gain experience working and studying.
Advance my career.

Downstream
Degree will take 2.5 years to complete.
By then I will be 27 years old.

Driving will be on 14 february.
Insyallah dengan izin allah. amin ;)

So how?Where should I go?

I didn't meant to be rude. I don't meant to be hush. Ya Allah
Ampun kan dosa aku.. Sesungguhnya engkau lebih mengerti.

It's super peaceful here in my blog. I don't need to filter my expression, my words, emotions and thought. All
I know is that I'm by myself.

Assalamuaikum,

I was honestly feeling very messed up over things. When I actually realized that I'm not alone.
My life been great alhamduiliah. Allah has been kind to me always. He gave me alot of sto g
and motivation to carry on with life. He gave a light that glow and believe that he will always love me.
I can never ask for more.

I have a career now. There's many more challenges that's coming my way.
I still believe that Allah is fair. He always wants us to know that life is never easy.
We will be tested in many ways. Nevertheless we need to just have faith and believe.
Holding my head up high and determine to be someone better.
I want my family back. I want the family bonding back. I have faith that everything will be alright,
Everyone has their own problem and difficulties. As I always believe that
good things will happen someday. And I also believe that there's always people out there who have even more difficult time then us. Life still needs to move on. I wish my mum would get better and stronger. Honestly I miss her around the house. I miss
her cooking. Her nagging, her being messed up. Her laugher her tears. I still believe that Allah will cure her. I love you mum. Always will...

Alhamdulillah,
I cant asked anything more for the progression in my life now.
Syukur pada yang maha kuasa. Amin
Things are still rough and I'm not sure till when will it be for me and my family.
But I'm sure it will end soon.
Insyallah

Assalamuaikum,

Hari ini,
Tuhan sahaja tahu bertapa berdebar nya hati aku tadi.
Hati aku seperti di uji, Mata dan Minda seperti tidak percaya apa yang berlaku.
Terang lagi perjelasaan ini bahawa,
Kediaman orang tidak semestinya mereka senang.
Senyuman orang tidak semestinya mereka suka.
Betapa derita nya mereka.
Diri seperti di siksa.
Diri yang sering di ganggu
Ketenangan mereka tidak ada lagi dalam hati
Perasaan yang takut dan siksa.
Berat mata memadang, Berat lagi bahu yang memikul nya.
Berbagai kesiksaan yang ku lihat.
Airmata yang mengalir, Jeritaan yang mengerikan, reaksi mereka yang sungguh mendebarkan.
Perderitan yang tidak ada penjelasaan.
Kata kata yang mereka ucapkan, mempenuhi dendam dan kejahatan.
Kita manusia,tidak semua keinginan kita dapat kita miliki
Kita sering di uji,
Bersyukur la dengan ape yang diberi
Jangan la kita menyiksa kan sesama manusia.
Hapuskan la perasaan dendam dan zaliman sesama umat.
Jangan la kita megah dengan kesejahteraan dan kekayaan kita.
Yang mungkin menjadi punca kejahatan orang yang cemburu.

I have learn something beneficial today that only my eyes and ears could witness.
I may not be a perfect person who is devote to my religion.
I hope to be a better person.

Wa'alakumsalam

Why do I still feel that I'm not prioritize?
What is the actual task and responsibility of being in a relationship?
Is it about one person making the efforts or both?
Is it about just wasting your time with someone?
How do you show that she is your someone special?
How to maintain a healthy and lively relationship?
Why is your girlfriend the last person to know everything?
I don't understand, love such a beautiful word to be heard and said
Yet it's so difficult to prove.

Hi blog, i know i have been abandon, I'm sorry but anyways i'm doing good.
Eventhought things tone down now. but nothing is a full stop.
I'm still moving on with my life.
Now I'm very much confused about where should I go after school. Honestly.
I would love to fly, I would love to teach, I would love to work in petrol industry.
I studied hard and wish to be successful someday.

Bismillah hi rahmannirahim

Ya allah, kau terangi la jalan kejayaan untuk lu. Sesungguh nya semua ke bahagian and kejayaan datang darimu.

Amin ya rabil alamin.

I wish to fly and bring my love ones along.

In life we human are never satisfy with our needs.
Is either that we always assume on what we don't know or what we want.
Sometimes the needs and desire, we want can be so drastic and we want it so desperately.

In this world there's so many things that we have to face.
So many things that we tried to avoid but it happened without us realizing.
And if it prolongs it would harm so many people around us.

I closed my eyes and focus on things around me,
The challenge that god tested us can be so impactful
But we still have to be strong and believe that he existed.

Most times due to desperate terms,
We just go the easy way out.
Without realizing that our faithful in god is tested.

There's so many things I have seen,
Yet there's nothing I could do to help.
I'm just a human that god bring down to earth for a test.

There's only one god I believe,
But it's really convincing how they can used some verses from the quran
and manipulate your mind for their spiritual believe.
I took a step back and said,

Ya allah, Is this the right way? Is this how you want us to repay and be faithful to you?

Ya allah, i pray and hope that you would brighten up the path for my family.